Anhedonia

Standing in front of the fridge, eating cold scrambled eggs…

Compromise, compromise - I repeat.
It isn't that hard, it must'nt be.
Avoid greater trouble, just breathe.
Breathe in and breathe out.
Leave it there, can't focus right now.

Everyone is taking it differently,
Faking it or not; everyone seems to have it more easy.
Ease, ease, ease…
Please, please, please.

Maybe a cup of tea, maybe a bit of this.
Hello, are you even listening? -- No.
But still, I take a sip.

I look at myself,
A beggar; I silently beg.
I keep it to myself.
I ruminate and do; I soon will regret.

Putting a stop to a whirl,
An unforeseen stop - Kept me still;
Howbeit my reckoning, revolves.
My reckoning is ill.